I thought mourning was the worst thing that could happen to me. < img src = "https://zycie.news/crrops/e06daf/620x0/1/0/2024/11/11/kosypjvcqa5g0ffjcuqmqmmd9uwelmeyxdj6fer.jpg" alt = "widow @pexels" Style = "background-color: rgba (81.74.52.1)" > < p > that the biggest b & oacute; lem is to bury someone with whom he spent p & oacute; ły life. When the husband died M “oacute; Je husband & ndash; Suddenly, unexpectedly & ndash; The world stopped in place. I was alone, in silence, which I did not even notice before.

< p > We have been together for over 20 years. Of course, as in marriage & ndash; R & oacute; But I trusted him. I believed that although not ideal, he was M & Amp; Oacute; J. And then & Hellip; Then hell began.

< p > A woman came first. I didn't know her. She was about thirty years old. She stood in the door, with her child's hand. She said only: < br />< br /> & amp. & AMP; BDQUO; I'm sorry. He was also the father of my son. I wanted you to know. < P >I felt the world removed from my n & oacute; g. I thought: & AMP; Bdquo; it's a joke. It's not him. Not m & oacute; juar. & Amp; rdquo; But she had evidence. Photos. News.

< p > later & ndash; inheritance documents. It turned out that M & Amp; Oacute; Jer has been maintaining a second family for years. I haven't calmed down yet when the next message came & Amp; Ndash; Testament.

< p > saved plot, about which & oacute; Rej thought that it belonged to us, was prescribed & hellip; for a lover. Not on me. Not on our children. For her. Because & bdquo; helped him in difficult moments &.

< p > I don't know which & oacute; re exactly meant. Maybe when I worked for two jobs and he “stayed longer at work.” I started searching the documents. I looked through the phone, an old computer. The more I discovered, the less I knew a man with whom I slept for two decades.

< p > hidden accounts. I had no idea about which I had no idea. Love letters, photos, hotel tickets. I couldn't believe that it all happened behind my back. That my whole life was based on illusion.

< p > I'm alone today. But not in mourning after him. I am in mourning. After a woman who believed, trusted, gave her heart & Hellip; And kt & oacute; only after his death learned that her whole marriage was a spectacle of lies.

< p > worst in all this ? that I can't talk to him anymore. I can't ask: & why ? & & I can't even hear the miserable & I am sorry &.

< p > he left me with wounds, which have not healed for years. But one thing I know: I will not let the rest of my life be the shadow of his secret & oacute; w. Because although the truth hurts, it is my new freedom.

Natasha Kumar

By Natasha Kumar

Natasha Kumar has been a reporter on the news desk since 2018. Before that she wrote about young adolescence and family dynamics for Styles and was the legal affairs correspondent for the Metro desk. Before joining The Times Hub, Natasha Kumar worked as a staff writer at the Village Voice and a freelancer for Newsday, The Wall Street Journal, GQ and Mirabella. To get in touch, contact me through my natasha@thetimeshub.in 1-800-268-7116